I went for my yearly eye check-up today. You might not know that I have terrible vision. It all started in fourth grade when I was seated near the back of the glass, and was frequently seen squinting at the board. When I got my first pair of glasses, I couldn't believe how clearly normal people saw the world. The sharp edges were hyper-real, like I was living in the Matrix all of the sudden.
In eighth grade I switch to daily-wear contacts. Back then disposables hadn't yet been invented. And so I've never changed. I think I'm single-handedly keeping the daily-wear contact industry in business ... if indeed one pair a year is enough to keep them in business.
I've never forgotten one particular eye exam when I was in high school. I read the chart with my right eye; "20/100," announced the doctor, making a notation on the chart. I tried to read the chart with my left eye, but couldn't see any of the letters. The doctor held up three fingers in the stream of light, and I gave the right number. "Counted fingers," said the doctor, writing on the chart.
For years I boasted about how bad my eyes were by telling that story. But now I wonder if it ever happened that way. I've gotten many eye exams since then, and not once has an optometrist ever resorted to holding up fingers. My eyes are still bad -- really bad -- but maybe they're not as legendarily bad as I've always believed.
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 2, 2008
Squint to see
I first found out that I was nearsighted in fourth grade. My assigned seat was in the second-to-last row of the class, and I was constantly peering at the fuzzy words on the board and getting up for a better look.
When I got my first pair of glasses, I couldn't believe that normal people walked around every day seeing the world like this. I didn't have the analogy back then, of course, but it was exactly like the difference between HDTV and the normal broadcast standard. Everything was so clearly delineated, as if outlined with sharp boundaries. The distinction in the environment was a shock to me. Things separated themselves from each other with lines of light and color completely alien to the watercolor washes and impressionistic blurs I had always lived with.
In the eighth grade I got contact lenses, and became perversely proud of how poor my vision was. My relatively good right eye was 20/100. My almost useless left eye was off the chart; the eye doctor's report didn't even use numbers for it. "Four fingers," it said, indicating that I could distinguish four fingers held up against the light, even though I couldn't make out any of the letters or numbers.
Things haven't gotten much worse in the ensuing decades. I went to the doctor today and got a slight uptick in my prescription. The one consolation of nearsightedness is that it delays the onset of presbyoptera, apparently; I've yet to experience problems at reading distance. But for the rest of my life I'll be completely dependent on these little concavities of plastic, and the various cases and solutions that keep them wearable.
I'll always be grateful for that moment of clarity when I saw the world for the first time the way people with normal sight see it every day. Even though I've spent nearly every waking hour since with lenses that give me that experience, that distinctiveness still feels artificial to me -- as if someone is projecting a sharper, hyperfocused version of the world upon my brain.
When I got my first pair of glasses, I couldn't believe that normal people walked around every day seeing the world like this. I didn't have the analogy back then, of course, but it was exactly like the difference between HDTV and the normal broadcast standard. Everything was so clearly delineated, as if outlined with sharp boundaries. The distinction in the environment was a shock to me. Things separated themselves from each other with lines of light and color completely alien to the watercolor washes and impressionistic blurs I had always lived with.
In the eighth grade I got contact lenses, and became perversely proud of how poor my vision was. My relatively good right eye was 20/100. My almost useless left eye was off the chart; the eye doctor's report didn't even use numbers for it. "Four fingers," it said, indicating that I could distinguish four fingers held up against the light, even though I couldn't make out any of the letters or numbers.
Things haven't gotten much worse in the ensuing decades. I went to the doctor today and got a slight uptick in my prescription. The one consolation of nearsightedness is that it delays the onset of presbyoptera, apparently; I've yet to experience problems at reading distance. But for the rest of my life I'll be completely dependent on these little concavities of plastic, and the various cases and solutions that keep them wearable.
I'll always be grateful for that moment of clarity when I saw the world for the first time the way people with normal sight see it every day. Even though I've spent nearly every waking hour since with lenses that give me that experience, that distinctiveness still feels artificial to me -- as if someone is projecting a sharper, hyperfocused version of the world upon my brain.
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